Momento of life...

“What is a friend? A single soul dwelling in two bodies.” ― Aristotle

What else i can define our relationship now. To be more exact, not relationship but friendship because it will lasting forever. How can i forgot him because we experienced together for the past 18 yrs. (Knew him for 5++ yrs and been together for more than 13 yrs..ahhh too long isn't). But we never know our fate, eventho we know that HE already create our journey from the first when sperm stick around into our mom's worm. And for the last three years, we manage our life as individual routine while he lives in Batu Caves and i move to my own sanctuary in Sg Long. Sometimes we outing for dinner and hi-tea and sometimes i went to visit his sister and his niece. His siblings did visit me during raya and we keep our perhubungan as usual as ipar. As for me, past is past and past is history. Once i labelled it as history, i need to preserve and keep it well so that i can recall, refer and see it when i feel to do that. Some people said alaa ko ni hidup dalam kenangan, apa nak jadi? I have my personal reason why i did that.

Butterfly drip tu banyak kali tersadung dan aku tak tahu dia mengalami kesakitan yang total atau buat-buat sakit sebab dia memang suka buat joke yang boleh buat jantung luruh..so the best solution is aku diam dan tanya adakah dia sakit atau tidak. Err hati kering kah aku atau memang dia yang berhati kering sebab buat lawak dengan jarum..hmmm!

Monday afternoon, his sister text me.." Kak, yeop warded. Apa-apa hal kakak call dia ya. Dia minta saya inform kakak.." And i was shock because as far as im concern, his condition is well and he has no problem at all regarding health because he went to do outdoor activities like memasukkan diri ke dalam kelompok Golongan Orang Lemah Fikiran and went fishing at tasik and kolam during his leisure times. At that time i was at Sabak Bernam. Back to KL around 11pm, i rushed to visit him at Ampang Puteri and he was in a good contition. Katanya masuk hospital sebab sakit perut saja dan we was like ketawa-ketawa sambil tengok animal planet, sambil minum kopi. Aku lah yang minum kopi, dia tak boleh minum sebab nurse kata dia kena puasa. Masa tu daj jam 12 midnite. Raftly, dia ok. I backed home around 1am and dozed off @ tidur mati sebab penat gila.

Tomorrow (Tuesday)morning, i texted and call him but no answer at all. I presumed that he was in a well and excellent situation because dia ni kalau time bergumbira atau sihat walafiat dia memang tak akan inform aku. Sejak dulu, memang dah faham sangat pe'el perangainya. Around 6.30pm he text me and told me that he just woke up after all the anaesthetic off from his body. Eh what happen you? What happen? I just had a long hour operation. MasyaAllah!! Apa hal ni hujan tidak ribut pun tidak tetiba kuar bilik bedah. 

The saddest (or may i say funniest) part was when a doctor asked him where is the rest of his family sebab basically kalau nak masuk bilik bedah, family members berderet tunggu dan mengiringi but refer to him, dia sensorang jer bertemankan nurse..aduhhh memang sadis kan dan Datuk Dr Mohammad geleng kepala while i felt funny because masa nak lawat dia pagi-pagi buta kat ICU, jam 7am pagi semalam (Wednesday morning) i inform nurse that im his wife..cheeehhh...nak menipu tapi kantoi kan. 

Atas dasar kasihan nurse bagi aku masuk dan dia juga dah inform nurse tolong bagi wife dia masuk...kehkeheh! Nasib baiknya cuma ada sorang dua saja nurse yang tahu he is bachelor dan nurse yang bagi aku masuk tu adalah nurse yang baru masuk shift so dia tak tahu kes sebenar..haha!

Last nite, i visited him and the situation was like a bit emotional and melancholy because he keep asking me about baliklah duduk satu rumah semula dengan dia and my answer was i still stand to be alone..tapi tak tahulah apa akan jadi seminit ke hadapan kerana hidup, minda, akal, hati dan fikiran kita adalah milik Allah. Kalau Allah mahu tukar pendirian sekelip mata saja boleh berlaku. It didn't mean that i change my mind but i used to be alone, manage my life alone and do everthing alone walaupun penakut gila babas lebih-lebih lagi currently ada banyak kes samun dan pecah rumah di kejiranan aku.

Wayar berselirat dan itu adalah prosedur biasa katanya. Ada banyak part yang ditoreh dengan pisau..iskk rasa pening bila tengok part tu walaupun tak sampai setengah inci tapi berupaya memberi rasa sakit pada keseluruhan badan katanya. Itu hanya sebahagian wayar dan ada beberapa kawasan lagi yang juga dipenuhi wayar.

KA, keadaan tidak selamanya baik seperti yang kita inginkan..tapi Allah mengetahui akan apa yang ada dalam hati kita. When i step out from his room and walked along to the carpark, hujan masih turun dari langit. Basah di mana-mana dan pokok-pokok berjejeran dengan titis air di hujung daunnya. Langit menangis..dan pilu mungkin kerana terluka oleh ancaman alam. Seperti kami, walaupun dia yang mengalami situasi kesakitan itu,  namun aku terasa juga kerana  kami berkongsi sesuatu dinamakan semangat kehidupan. Cubit paha kanan, paha kiri terasa sakit dan terhiris jari manis, seluruh jari terasa ngilunya!